another attack!! ahh!!

[Sila]

so right now, I was in the middle of something when suddenly I got another attack! The attacks have worsen over the past few weeks....now it's like I"lm having one every damn day! Ok, so what I'm talking about is anxiety attacks, which were caused by my consumption of E. I barely started partying a few months ago, therefore I haven't taken many pill, but apparently E affected me in that way, and now I can't roll anymore. The last time I rolled I got a very, very, very, bad attack....I got so scared, I really thought I was going to die because my heart rate increased tremendously, even more than the usual when rolling....I hate it that I'm too weak to roll now....Now I think I need medication to help me with the anxiety disorder I have developed because of rolling.....has this happened to anyone else??

[*pixy*]

sila i'm sorry to hear i hope everything is well and i hope you get better keep n touch

[Lunar]

i truly have sympathy on your soul. it brings me grief to hear of something like this. i have dealt with a situation like this with my good friend. after i introduced him to e, a week later he broke down and tried to kill himself. ill save the details, but i say do not do this kind of stuff if you are not mentally capable.

[Doctor E.vil]

Originally Posted by Sila

so right now, I was in the middle of something when suddenly I got another attack! The attacks have worsen over the past few weeks....now it's like I"lm having one every damn day! Ok, so what I'm talking about is anxiety attacks, which were caused by my consumption of E. I barely started partying a few months ago, therefore I haven't taken many pill, but apparently E affected me in that way, and now I can't roll anymore. The last time I rolled I got a very, very, very, bad attack....I got so scared, I really thought I was going to die because my heart rate increased tremendously, even more than the usual when rolling....I hate it that I'm too weak to roll now....Now I think I need medication to help me with the anxiety disorder I have developed because of rolling.....has this happened to anyone else??

E is basically modified Tweak if you look at it that way. On another note, being that less than 10% of all pills are pure, you might've gotten some speed in yours which would count for an increase in heartrate. Tho if you're having after effects, it's possible that your body just doesn't like E. I'd stay away from it at all costs. Who knows what could happen. If you've taken a lot of E over the past few weeks, it's possible that something in the pills, could be just the E itself has caused this, it really depends on how much and how often. I'd go see a doctor specializing in treating addicts. I'm not saying you're an addict, but a doctor of that type would be the best person I would think that could diagnose your symptoms if you are entirely honest with him with your drug use, being that he deals with people that use or have used drugs.

[Echo_Starling]

i'm sorry to hear that Sila. i'm going through the same thing with my g/f right now. she can't handle E anymore. Rolling isn't for everyone and should be somthing everyone takes seriously and is careful. you should listen to what your body is trying to tell you. either your physically not able to handle it or mentally. either way if anyone of those factors is true you should stop rolling.

its not such a bad thing, give your body time to recover itself. remember it isn't about the drugs anyway so its no big deal. you got lots of friends at parties and out of parties that you'll have a great time at raves anyway!

ps. how did you do on your tests you were telling me about on myspace?

-echo-

[Sila]

oh, I think I did fine. the test wasn't that hard, but I need to go check later to see if they posted the grades already! ahh!

but yeah, I still go to parties and they are still lots of fun of course, but the thing I don't like is that I get so tired fast! and then by like 2 or 3 I'm already all sleepy ...oh and I love giving light shows, so I can't do them as long as I would like, or even has fast....but it's cool....I'll be fine

[*pixy*]

Originally Posted by Sila

oh, I think I did fine. the test wasn't that hard, but I need to go check later to see if they posted the grades already! ahh!

but yeah, I still go to parties and they are still lots of fun of course, but the thing I don't like is that I get so tired fast! and then by like 2 or 3 I'm already all sleepy ...oh and I love giving light shows, so I can't do them as long as I would like, or even has fast....but it's cool....I'll be fine

sila you still gotta show me your sila style light shows

[Sila]

ok, I will! Are you going to Ohana? that's my next party! Maybe I can show you there ....

[*pixy*]

boooooooooo.....no i'm going to be at unity and EDC

[daved]

Originally Posted by Sila

so right now, I was in the middle of something when suddenly I got another attack! The attacks have worsen over the past few weeks....now it's like I"lm having one every damn day! Ok, so what I'm talking about is anxiety attacks, which were caused by my consumption of E. I barely started partying a few months ago, therefore I haven't taken many pill, but apparently E affected me in that way, and now I can't roll anymore. The last time I rolled I got a very, very, very, bad attack....I got so scared, I really thought I was going to die because my heart rate increased tremendously, even more than the usual when rolling....I hate it that I'm too weak to roll now....Now I think I need medication to help me with the anxiety disorder I have developed because of rolling.....has this happened to anyone else??

you have one like every day though!

[Sila]

yeah, everyday......it sucks...