I found the meaning of life at Popsikle

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Andrea,
Thank you for sharing your experience. I feel like I can totally relate when you said:

"It was like getting a little closer to insanity and comletely letting go."

At times I still feel that what I experienced was crazy. That I am actually crazy. But the more people I talk to, the more I write it down, the more I realize what I felt was real. I keep needing to re-read everything I've written just to make sure they make sense to me. I think writing it down makes it real somehow, instead of it just being in my head. And it's that part of me that's making me write everything I can relating to the experience.

Trevor,
Please do not apologize for anything you've said, and please don't hold anything back. I like the stuff you wrote, and I can feel your energy, and your passion. I don't know how, but I know, just like I can FEEL when somebody loves me and cares about me. The only thing I disagree with you is your sometimes unefficient and rude methods of delivering your messages.

I'm glad you asked me to prove my point on "Science" and "Sprituality". As I am also going through my thought process leading up to that point. I can't going into it detailed right now as I am at work. But I am in the process of thinking and writing it all down, and I will try to be as detailed as possible as I post more on my site. Keep in mind as I'm still trying to make sense of everything that I have experienced and still experiencing. The only thing I hope you can understand, is not what I've written as my "enligtenment", but rather that there is the "possibility" for someone to reach this state of mind. How they reach that place is their up to them. I'm writing my process and my thoughts as they come to me, and people can take it or not, and it's your choice to keep reading or not.

[Idi0tb0x]

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Just wanted to drop in and let you know my thoughts, and please pay extra special attention to the use of very specific languaging here, every word is completely intentional.

I believed that there was a god. I believed in reality/dimensions that we, in our normal consciousness, are unaware of. I believed that we are all part of a infinite non-linear dynamic system where movement/action or response or inaction of any one part or unit creates a net response in all other units even if the manifestation takes on a different form. I believed all of this.

I used to do drugs. Pot, LSD, Shrooms, X, Coke, Glass, 5-MeO DiPT (Foxy), etc. I've done a lot of many of them in combination too. I've done them with a lot of people, many of whom I no longer know and some of whom are dead from them. But none of them ever produced the mystical. LSD and other hallucinogens certainly flirted with it, and they were my favorite. A candy flip (or hippy flip for that matter) is an extremely synergistic combination, a favorite. The psychedelic LSD qualities mixing with the empathogenic XTC vibes is just about a perfect high. But it still was not "The One"

"The One" would completely remove all reality. "I" would become everything in "The One". "I" would remember my entirety inside of "The One"...how could I forget that it was always this way? There are no borders between "Me" and the great "IT". IT (I) am all there is, and you are a part of it...a part of me...we are everything. Wait...

I now know that there is a god. I know there are reality/dimensions that we, in our normal consciousness, are unaware of. I know that we are all part of a infinite non-linear dynamic system where movement/action or response or inaction of any one part or unit creates a net response in all other units even if the manifestation takes on a different form. I know all of this.

But I cannot prove it to anyone. People who were there with me did not see it. There are no devices that measure it. And yet, I KNOW with out a doubt that what "I/WE/IT/ALL" was and is, reality. I cannot explain it, you just have to see it for yourself. I have not forgotten and never will.

Not everyone who experiences these substances experience what you did. So, just know this, what YOU felt was certainly influenced by drugs, but in no way simply being high. You cannot sprout a seed in infertile soil. The realizations and experience you had was already there, you just needed to step out of yourself for a minute to see it.

I believe you. I feel like i know you.

There are no absolutes, no real proof, no empiricisms to justify it, but I know it beyond doubt, and so, even if only for me, it is true.

Be well, be safe, continue asking the universe questions, it will answer.

---Psychonaught---

[ZenKi_Go!]

i Dont Give A Fuck!!!

Dane If Anyone Tries To Start Shit Bring Um To Me!!!! Fuckin Haters! I Hate Those People! Haha Fuckin If You Didnt Have A Good Time Thats Your Bad Ya Fuckers!

[Idi0tb0x]

Originally Posted by ZenKi_Go!

i Dont Give A Fuck!!!

Dane If Anyone Tries To Start Shit Bring Um To Me!!!! Fuckin Haters! I Hate Those People! Haha Fuckin If You Didnt Have A Good Time Thats Your Bad Ya Fuckers!

Yeeeeee Haaawwwwww! Finally someone who makes some sense!
I don't give a withered rats ass either!!!!

YEEEEEEE HAWWWW woot woot!

[Doctor E.vil]

Originally Posted by Trevor

"That's like Eating an apple and knowing what the apple is about when you're just really enjoying the feeling from eating it."

That's a great quote from you, I think.

Nice post, Evil. I agree as well.

You are very good at dodging my argumentative nature. I will give you that.

Why thank you. I'm sure I stole it from somebody else, but not too sure.


I shall dodge on!


I do enjoy your lenghty philosophical rants. Don't let me ever miss them. You shall always have a place in my head.

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Ok, I finally wrote up the process that I thought helped me prepare for my trip. It's rather long and touches a lot of subjects, and maybe I'm just jabbering, but I do hope you guys read it and tell me what you think.

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Idi0tb0x,
Thanks for your post. While I don't think I can grasp the true meaning of your experiences, I can feel what you are saying, and your state of mind.

If you truly have figured it out, I am really really happy and excited for you. And I wish everyone can some how attain that feeling, whether through mind altering substances or not.

[vaporub]

Originally Posted by ZenKi_Go!

i Dont Give A Fuck!!!

Dane If Anyone Tries To Start Shit Bring Um To Me!!!! Fuckin Haters! I Hate Those People! Haha Fuckin If You Didnt Have A Good Time Thats Your Bad Ya Fuckers!

YEAH WE'LL SMASH ON EM!!!!!!!!!

the goggle crew sticks it through~

thanks zenki for having my back you know i got yours!

[shitsngiggles]

hhaha. hella unplur of you guys

[ZenKi_Go!]

Originally Posted by vaporub

YEAH WE'LL SMASH ON EM!!!!!!!!!

the goggle crew sticks it through~

thanks zenki for having my back you know i got yours!

Hell yeah i mean think about it! There is so many unplur ravers out there that it is kinda sick! look at it the way i see it homies... IF YOU DONT LIKE SOMETHING THEN YOUR ABLE TO EXPRESS IT! BUT DONT BE A BITCH AND PUT SHIT DOWN! BECAUSE IN THE END!!! EVERYONE LIVES WITH THE SAME MENTALITY AS I DO!!! NOW EVERYONE SAY IT!!!!

I DONT GIVE A FUCK!

[Konrad]

I'm still searching for the meaning of life...I think its right along there with my search for my own "purpose" and right now I'm torn on what it really is.