[Darkener]

So I got there late. Went completely sober... had a decent time. There was a certain someone that helped make my night special. : ) but other then that I was kind of... off. I wanted to dance... got too sweaty and didnt have the energy. I wanted to give light shows. My arms were weak and I need better lights. I wanted to socialize but my mind was too... fucked... I was sad widow didnt end up being there.

I have never gotten as filthy at a rave. hahaha that was entertaining.

YAY FOR THE WIND BLOWER!!!!!! every rave should have like 10.

*sigh* I felt kinda awkward in front of some of my good friends. mer...

I need another. POP isn't gonan be sufficient to fill my crave...

All in all... I wish that night hadn't gone exactly how thought it was goign to.

I couldnt focus on the rave as a whole. Too much personal things gettign in the way and I just wanted to be in my zone like I always am. I didn't feel it like I used to. And I'm pretty sure not being on drugs didn't have that much to do with it.