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I have a problem
I cant socialize for ex at like house parties
or just straight up socializing because most of the time when i socialize...its like BS talk
unless they are talking about something fun or dangerous i dont want to be in the conversation because i dont want to fake it
i can only function in dangerous adventures/activites, chilling with close homies, , or raves where im ACTUALLY partying

But yeah does this mean parties are not meant for me and i should stay away or im not normal.......
just wondering becacuse usually at all the parties i used to go to... i either stay sober and become really BORED or wear a banana thong and run around or just get FUCKED UPPPPPPP and just want to go to sleep in my car and fuck the party
or its just shitty parties ive been going to
HELP!